I was so excited when I got my first job paying me around $9/hr. I considered that to be “doing well,” comparatively speaking. I had to go through several jobs over many years before I worked up to payment that high.

It’s interesting thinking of my past “good pay” as being the new minimum, potentially.

I probably should back off a while. I feel like people are getting to know me too well, and I don’t want everyone to. Anonymity, and all that. Plus, I’ve said so much about myself that I feel like people see me as a broken bird or something now. That’s a sick feeling. And, just in general surrounding myself with the things that make me angry and sad’s not a good thing for my mood.

There’s some people I don’t want to lose contact with, though, but this is presently the only place I frequent on a daily basis online. So I don’t know if I should make an account elsewhere on something else, or what. I hear facebook is no better for the radfem crowd. I’m done with livejournal. I don’t want to go back to the old furry haunts, ever. I use deviantart in theory, but I haven’t been making art since I started regularly with tumblr (yet another reason to lighten up on my presence here). I could use AIM, but I get so damn anxious when I have to talk to people ‘in real time’ that I’d probably just start avoiding it if everyone had my screenname. Though, that’s probably something I should learn to get over. So, I dunno. People can give me their contact info anyway if they like. (Through fanmail or something.) Open to recommendations on better places to go. I’d really like to replace my tumblr habit with somewhere slightly less doom and gloom.

Not saying I’m 100% leaving. I mean, I’d like to, and ideally I will, but I have a tendency to get addicted to things and I’m a slave to routine, which tumblr fits well under. So I’m going to try to minimize my presence, whatever that ends up meaning.

Basically this place makes me feel like shit. I guess that’s why everyone that gets really involved usually quits after a year or so.

I’m weirded out by people who are in to horses but make a big deal out of being pro-horse slaughter. No other “animal person” (dog people, cat people, etc) go, “Oh, I love my ___, they are my life, best friend, etc- but I think the mass slaughter of them is a good thing for them as a whole.” If you wouldn’t want it done to your own pet, don’t even start with that. And if you would want it done to your own pet…. er, you’re kind of scary, but nice job being consistent, I guess.

coeur-de-porcelaine:

nothatsstupid:

nextyearsgirl:

“Well yes I know I just read a quote from an actual male porn actor saying that it was all about hating women and allowing men to get revenge on the women who never fucked them by seeing a guy come on their face…

…BUT HAVE YOU CONSIDERED THAT STRAIGHT WOMEN WATCH PORN SOMETIMES?”

I know the vast majority of porn is nonconsensual…

…BUT WON’T YOU THINK OF MINISCULE PERCENTAGE THE HIGH PAID ACTRESSES WHO LOVE THEIR JOBS AND CAN LEAVE WHENEVER THEY WANT?

seriously. It makes my blood boil that people, especially feminists, can read testimonies from women abused in porn and male porn actors being all ”yeah porn is made to perpetuate misogyny because that’s what men want to see” but STILL fall back on ”but but people consent to do it.” 

I’m at the point where I realize sex positive feminists are a lot more about style than substance. Who gives a shit about eradicating misogyny, if you’ll lose your super speshul sexy feminist badge? 

earthlynation:

dusk by Mark Bridger

 

teamenjolras:

i think the best (worst?) thing about the idea of “fake gamer girls” and “fake comics fans” and so on is the fact that it is so ridiculously, hilariously vain

because the underlying assumption is that we’re faking interest in nerdy pursuits in order to attract the attention of guys who like those things, right? honestly, when you get right down to it, the whole idea is nothing more than a bunch of unwashed, male gaze-y, mouth breathing douchebags who are convinced that all these beautiful, creative, passionate women are just desperate to go out with them

and that’s the most laughable thing ever

So, today I’m breezing through things after a few hours of study that I was instructed to take a week on, and then passing the subsequent test easily.

Sometimes I feel smart and like my brain isn’t broken at all.